Darkness swells from deep within
And I am wont to wish the end
The cause to me remains unknown
Yet times there are I feel I’ve grown
The new moon all that casts its light
On this street of shame I stride
Climactic time; so, flight or fight?
Fear compels to run and hide
But fight I must, so fight I will
Open mouth and spew my guts
For “love” I have and hope to fill
The world with joy and heal its cuts
“Love” has made my life worthwhile
But once again that “love” is quelled
Else it appears as evil guile
To rescue her I feel compelled
da Vinci wisdom suggests you might
Take time and care with some foresight
To ensure the Lisa smile persists
Though some may question if it exists
Dear God, I ask you help me see
A purpose in this life for me
Do I exist for fun and fancy free?
A prayer has brought come clarity
I have lived my life for someone else
I thought my joy it would freely bring
My heart, a wasteland, hope that melts
Not love, but pity, that which I sing
My eyes now open, I feel a surge
Of control and peace that fills my soul
Thoughts of rescue I begin to purge
Mutual benefit is a better goal
One that thinks of me as much
As I of her, her joy, and mine
No more a momentary crutch
Our hearts no longer toe the line
Pity leaves; my heart can learn to truly LOVE
Fear abates; passion strengthens my weakened heart
Worry fades; courage gives my heart a needed shove
Envy dies; my heart finally opened to life’s next part
