If I die, will others mourn?
Will tears be shed?
If I die, will others know?
Will they care and will they show?
How long before I become
A passing thought but once a year?
Few shall reminisce of me
“Remember when we knew that guy?”
Conflicted with the pain inside,
There’s joy to spread but not my own
“Howdy there, I love that tie!”
“You’re the best!” but still I die.
Waiting for a miracle
A miracle to save my life
A friend who understands my strife
One who cares without a thought.
Much more to me, than man can see
I hide my life, for privacy
No one can know the wretch I am
I must protect others from the real me
I wear this mask, though daft it be
I cannot be what they expect
Laughter, cheer, I can't be sad
This mask is difficult to bear
I suffocate but no one cares
“Make us laugh or go away”
I feel them look as if to say,
“You’re not with us, GO AWAY!”
I don’t belong, I’m in between
I wander lonely so again
I ask what happens when I pass
No tears are shed, just bury me
How does it end, I may not know
Do I lose this war inside
Give into feelings deep and dark
No more breath my lungs to take
Or do I live to be a man
To a ripe old age where memory fades
Now I lay my head to rest
And If I die, before I wake
There is no soul for God to take
Don’t waste your time, your tears, or breath
Just know in death, I’m finally free
From these sins I’ve never beat
Satan’s won and I have lost
I cannot comprehend the cost
I love you Mom, I love you Dad.
Little bro and sisters four
Each day I loved you more and more
But on I go as I cannot bear
To struggle in this earthly sphere
I hope you know you did your all
But none could save me from this gall
Such a failure, night and day
I give up now, and fail again
I hope you can forgive me still
Now I know that when I die
Tears won't be shed, not even mine
As I gasp my last breath in
A tear collects and runs on down
Now I’m gone, good bye forever
Never again will I see your face
