Have you
ever laid there and wished you could die
Wondering
how, when, and where your life went awry
Hopes,
dreams, and plans have toppled on down
Now looking
for some way to exit, rebound
Oh Mandy, you
came and you gave without taking
Be glad it’s
not me, a life with whom you’re making
Dayana, we
chased the night for a brief stint
Damn good
thing that you caught onto the hint
Cheryl, I
was overzealous and spooked you like a deer
Rejoice you
escaped and got yourself far from here
Laura, I don’t
know how you knew it back then
Bullets you
dodged pushing me away again and again
Kjirsten,
what can I say? I lost you, I never even
fought
Trust me,
with me your life would have been shot
Angie, you
were crazy and I loved you to death
With me, you
never would take a healthy breath
To all of
you, I say a final farewell and good luck!
I don’t know
but to tell you that I know I still suck
I hope you’re
all happy just like you deserve
Lives like
yours should be loved and preserved
I hate who I
am and I only infest
Making
others grow weary and eventually detest
I want to be
good and want to be bad
I want to be
happy while feeling so sad
I am two
different souls living at war
No wonder I
hate myself down to the core
Give it a
rest and maybe in some future day
Someone may
come and bring love your way
Give it a
rest and bid love adieu
No one wants
anything to do with you
Tormented
inside, it is good I’m alone
No need to
drag another to this Hell of my own
Fuck! is the
only word that comes to my mind
Fuck! you’re
an idiot and utterly blind
